I've been in school for over a month now and things are a tad different. Obviously I'm not exactly cut out for a.p. classes. I ended up dropping A.P. Micro economics and A.P. Studio Art. I know I know sad face no new art. I need to get this a.p. english class out of the way for graduation.

I found out my brother isn't going to be graduating this year. Due to his "awesome" addiction to partying and throwing his life away he's also begun to throw his brain away. Talking to that kid is like talking to a wall. You get nothing out of the conversation. I admit there are ways to party in a controlled way. If you find that your schedule is filed entirely with some stupid get together were said friends are either smoking pot or getting plastered than I suggest we reconsider. Don't get me wrong I love my brother. It's heart wrenching to watch him go down this road. In so many ways I feel bad for excelling in school.

I've been so much better lately. I've found myself in good spirits and I can't help but smile all the time. I have nothing to be happy about but I'm happy to be alive. I have sought an even greater peace, one in which only my maker can grant. Call me a Jesus freak if you will but I find myself searching for more and more reasons to show up at church and find some way to involve myself.
monday night youth group, tuesday I have bible study with my big brother, wednesday I go to church to meet with a friend and work on homework in the cafe, thursday is choir and leadership training, friday and saturdays are my days off, and sunday it's back to the big house.

It's not this self gratification it's that I'm loved by a God who's thoughts of each and every one of his creation out number the grains of sand. A God so merciful that he would die so that I can live a life free from Sin. Don't get me wrong I do sin but he takes those sins and washes them all away. He percieves my thoughts from afar, he knows when I sit and when I rise. Some may say "um okay that's a little obcessive and creepy" but I'm more than happy with my way of life. I have no "false hope." In Christ alone my hope is found, he is my light, my strength, and my song. It's nothing false either, it's something true, something wonderful. No matter how hard I try to stray away from him I'm always led back to my fathers arms.

I have hardly any time to sit down between school work, voice and piano lessons, Choir, Church, and the youth group I started at school. I'm a busy kid and I intend to stop at nothing to achieve my goals. <3
Let me know what's going on with you?