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Hold on tightly, let go lightly.

Tue Sep 29, 2009, 7:04 PM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: The hum of my fan
  • Reading: Guliver's Travels
  • Watching: gLee
  • Playing: Piano
  • Eating: Fruit Roll ups lol
  • Drinking: V8 Splash
I've been in school for over a month now and things are a tad different. Obviously I'm not exactly cut out for a.p. classes. I ended up dropping A.P. Micro economics and A.P. Studio Art. I know I know sad face no new art. I need to get this a.p. english class out of the way for graduation.

I found out my brother isn't going to be graduating this year. Due to his "awesome" addiction to partying and throwing his life away he's also begun to throw his brain away. Talking to that kid is like talking to a wall. You get nothing out of the conversation. I admit there are ways to party in a controlled way. If you find that your schedule is filed entirely with some stupid get together were said friends are either smoking pot or getting plastered than I suggest we reconsider. Don't get me wrong I love my brother. It's heart wrenching to watch him go down this road. In so many ways I feel bad for excelling in school.

I've been so much better lately. I've found myself in good spirits and I can't help but smile all the time. I have nothing to be happy about but I'm happy to be alive. I have sought an even greater peace, one in which only my maker can grant. Call me a Jesus freak if you will but I find myself searching for more and more reasons to show up at church and find some way to involve myself.
monday night youth group, tuesday I have bible study with my big brother, wednesday I go to church to meet with a friend and work on homework in the cafe, thursday is choir and leadership training, friday and saturdays are my days off, and sunday it's back to the big house.

It's not this self gratification it's that I'm loved by a God who's thoughts of each and every one of his creation out number the grains of sand. A God so merciful that he would die so that I can live a life free from Sin. Don't get me wrong I do sin but he takes those sins and washes them all away. He percieves my thoughts from afar, he knows when I sit and when I rise. Some may say "um okay that's a little obcessive and creepy" but I'm more than happy with my way of life. I have no "false hope." In Christ alone my hope is found, he is my light, my strength, and my song. It's nothing false either, it's something true, something wonderful. No matter how hard I try to stray away from him I'm always led back to my fathers arms.

I have hardly any time to sit down between school work, voice and piano lessons, Choir, Church, and the youth group I started at school. I'm a busy kid and I intend to stop at nothing to achieve my goals. <3
Let me know what's going on with you?

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Suburbia of Chicago
  • Interests: Art, Music, Literature...boring enough for you?
  • Favourite movie: Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
  • Favourite band or musician: Depeche Mode or Boys night out
  • Operating System: Vista TT_TT
  • Favourite cartoon character: If house was a cartoon I would be happy
  • Personal Quote: I may seem nieve when I say that I love in spite of all reasons to hate but in truth I'm fair

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Comments


:iconfeatkae:
Thanks for the favorite :)

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The world is a mess and I just... need to rule it.
:iconunworthyaliby:
No problem ^_^

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What's more important- your goal, or others' opinions of your goal... ♥
:icondarthmethodist:
Thanks for the watch, strange teenager I don't know!
:iconunworthyaliby:
lol you are welcome creepy person with a face...
<3

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What's more important- your goal, or others' opinions of your goal... ♥
:icontotalgeekling:
heyyy (:
thanks for the fav!

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...and that's how I became a part of...the twilight zone. :music:
~rinoa36...is my smexilicous love! :D
:iconfragmentedmemories:
I believe that a segment of time has passed. Can u here it?

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I always wanted to be good at something but tend to fail alot. Then I realized. i am good at something. im good at letting u down
:iconunworthyaliby:
I wish I didn't know inside that it won't work out for you and I. I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last good bye.

After all the things you put me through tell me why I'm still in love with you. And why am I still waiting for your call. You broke my heart I'm taking it back from you. Taking back this life I gave to you life goes on before and after you. You've got some growing up to do.... Wishes by Superchick

I love that song..... I responded are you happy?
<3

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What's more important- your goal, or others' opinions of your goal... ♥
:iconfragmentedmemories:
lol. I wasnt expecting u to respond to my signature. but sure happy still none the less

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I always wanted to be good at something but tend to fail alot. Then I realized. i am good at something. im good at letting u down
:iconunworthyaliby:
When do you get off work?
<3

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What's more important- your goal, or others' opinions of your goal... ♥
:iconfragmentedmemories:
I got off at 2:30 but I ran into a guy who had to wait an hour for his dad to get off so I befriended him during that time period.
PS. Its really cold outside here.

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I always wanted to be good at something but tend to fail alot. Then I realized. i am good at something. im good at letting u down

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